Life Changing Decision
Since Matthew died, we have done a lot of research. Turns out that my antidepressants have serious side effects. Not only to me, but my children through me. That would explain why out of 5 pregnancies, I have had something wrong with all of them. And why each subsequent pregnancies were more and more difficult. So I have made a decision before I have my next child. Get completely off of Effexor. I am sure I never really “suffered from severe chronic depression” as my label indicated after taking a subjective checklist that anybody could answer yes, sometimes to. Looking back, I am sure it has been my history of many negative environments and situations. So I have 7 years under my belt of this drug in my system and now will face my withdrawal and accompanying effects that go with it. But I am more than willing to face these physical and maybe psychological difficulties if it will mean avoiding potential life risking dangers to me or my next child. My children should have not faced these side effects and any accompanying hardships and I should not have buried my son. Time will tell how my body and brain will react to total removal of a drug that my system has been forced to be dependent on for so long.