After going through my 5 year old son’s birth record, I am disgusted to learn that they had lied to me then. If they had told me the truth, I would have weaned 5 years ago. Instead, I am told something else and encouraged to continue my antidepressant use. Because of that, Jacob and Andrew are permanently affected, and Matthew and Simon are dead. How can I feel any other way? I was told that Jacob had a lung infection due to swallowing of merconium and why he needed to stay in NICU for 10 days. But his records clearly state that he did not have a lung infection. The tests proved that. Instead, they have written respiratory problems. He had to stay in an oxygen rich incubator and could not keep up his blood oxygen level. To this day, his blood oxygen level does not surpass a saturaation of 94%. It hovers around 89-90%. Normally we should have oxygen levels of 99-100%. Not to mention the fact that he was born after 9 months of being given Effexor and suddenly quit cold turkey. How cruel. The withdrawal alone could have killed him. They did not let me breastfeed him because he couldn’t come out of his incubator without losing conciousness. Had they let me nurse him, he would have withdrawn from the drug slowly. Instead they tortured him through withdrawal for 6 days before giving him the drug again through allowing me to breastfeed. We have read and reread his file over and over. It is nice to see that Effexor was listed under risk factors on his file, but no one took into account that it gave him PPHN. All the notes made by medical staff point to acute withdrawal and PPHN. They caused my son permanent damage and didn’t tell me what was really going on. I would have weaned then.
I am anxious to get my other boys charts to see if Effexor was listed as a risk factor. I am most eager to get Matthew’s file since he died from PPHN. Had they took the Effexor seriously with the fact that Jacob had it then Matthew could have been saved, maybe. Some babies with known PPHN still can die even with intervention. They should have seen the damage and risks and told me to wean. They still encouraged the antidepressant use after Matthew died to deal with the loss! They even wanted to increase my dose!
My other worry now is Andrew’s severe sleep apnea at 3. Cole has an erratic heartbeat. And Jacob’s poor oxygen levels. I think about all these moms who have lost their babies to SIDS and yet will take antidepressants while they try to get pregnant again. How frustrating for me. The info is there. Serotonin is what controls the autonomic nervous system. That is the system that we do not think about or conciously control. Breathing and heartrate are the main ones. Why in a first world country with some of the best medical care in the world, is SIDS on the rise? Why are SIDS rates higher here than in 3rd world countries? I’m not talking infant mortality rates(although our numbers aren’t impressive), I’m talking SIDS. Because North America has the highest rate of women on antidepressants and antianxietey medication. The numbers are there and nobody wants to see them. SIDS rates have risen along with these medication rates rising. They are even linking SIDS to serotonin levels in the brain stem being off. A baby gets their serotonin levels from their mother while in the womb. So if mommy’s serotonin levels are messed up with an SSRI/SNRI then baby’s are changed. These drugs cause prolonged QT syndrome. That’s where the time between the heartbeat is prolonged. So a baby’s heart will rest between beats, and due to prolonged QT doesn’t start up again. Baby is dead. Quickly and quietly with no warning or signs. SIDS. It’s so simple and yet so many women want to take that chance. Disgusting. How can a woman with a baby she wants to protect poison their unborn baby?
So again. If the hospital and doctors had been honest with me. My boys would be healthy and/or alive. Instead, I have to deal with medical problems and dead children. And there is no excuse. The problems that these drugs cause was known back in 2004 when Jacob was born. It was known long before that too. I think how much better it would be to live in the U.K. where most doctors don’t believe in depression being fixed with a pill (it can’t. there is no test or definitive proof that these drugs even work for depression other than the placebo effect) or ADHD (these drugs just make a child stoned and cause heart problems and central nervous system damage like facial tics) These are made up illnesses so drug companies can make lots of money. It is a racket to the tune of tens of billions of dollars a year, selling drugs that don’t work to a country where people don’t want to take the time to work through the real problem and have the instant “fix” that these drugs promise. They don’t have proof they work and long term use of these meds cause heart damage and other problems. Money is more important than health. And we are at risk.
If in Matthew and Simon’s death, they can save one child, it is well worth it.
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