July 16, 2013 at 8:35 pm 2 comments

By: Emilie Schultz

It’s closing in fast.
Too fast.
I’m panicking, trapped.
Walls are all around me.
Waves of sadness are drowning me.
I don’t know what to do.
I can’t escape.
I just lost someone I love.
I will never be happy again.
I’m cold.
Nothing can warm me up.
I’m expected to move on like nothing happened.
I’m afraid if I do there will be more pain.
Slowly, timidly, I open up.
I try again.
The pain of death will always be there.
But the birth of someone new brings the best cure.
A cure that only God could have made.

This poem was written by our daughter Emilie after losing Matthew and Simon and then bringing Daniel home. She touches on so many truths in such a few amount of words. I can feel her pain as I read this. I can feel her love too. These boys have truly touched our family and for that I am eternally grateful.

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  • 1. Christine Puricelli  |  July 17, 2013 at 6:31 am

    OMG!  Your daughter’s name is Emilie–spelled just like my Emilie!  She died in her sleep when she was 22, from undiagnosed Congenital Long QT Syndrome.  I’ve written to you before.  

  • 2. Christine Puricelli  |  July 17, 2013 at 6:34 am

    Very Beautifully written–both of them. What a sweet big sister Emilie must be!


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